...on frying and killing

...It's only 8:24 in the morning but I am already blogging...don't know between walang magawa or tinatamad aqng gumawa ngayon!haiz...actually I was just blogging coz I find something funny, usual maybe, painful also maybe and a sad reality as early today...

...first thing first, I find something funny and usual maybe

   

  

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  I was riding a jeep going to office (Talisay-Bacolod) ng sumakay yund tga Ford na lalaki, actually palagi q syang nakakasabay everytime I am going to office so we are familiar to each other, yesterday I also saw him but we're not riding on the same jeep.This day, sumakay xa on the ceres terminal, I suddenly reconize him and he also reconize me. Me as usual doesn't pay attention to anyone riding on the jeep, I was having a world of my own...what kinda annoying is that this guy keeps on looking at me whenever I am not looking...maybe he doesn't know na nararamdaman q yun!hahahaha...kinda ESP...hehehehe..pero actually nararamdaman q talaga...then there was this instance na bigla aqng tumingin xa kanya coz nasilaw aq...hahahahaha..I caught him off guard looking intently at me!haiz...parang gusto q talagang taasan nang kilay but on instant I say to myself" let him look, he was just actually looking, walang mawawala and beside hanggang dun lang yon!hahahahaha...this was the first time that I let someone look at me intently without questioning him/her or without looking at him/her back na nakataas ang kilay q!hahahahahahaha...naging mabait aq ngayong umaga sa kanya!..thanks for him!hahahahahahahahaha...

...hmmm let's just stop to sad reality

• haiz...don't know where to start this one, its just that I have read her blog!don't know if I was born to like hurting my self coz all this time I am permitting my self to get hurt!haiz...I should stop all this nonsense and move on with my life!I know I should find my happiness...haiz...this is a chapter in one's life that really is very painful and no one wanted to be...I wanted to move on and forget everything but I still keep on holding on...I couldn't just turn away and move on...don't know why!The saddest part is that I know that there's no point on holding on, on waiting, on wishing, on wanting him but I still do...sana there is no hypothalamus so that I could not feel any emotions!so that I could not feel the pain...haiz...pra platonic ang lyf..hehehehehe