...unfathomable

...don't know what has gotten into me...I have long decided to let go but on certain circumstances I made a move to have a communication with him!!!

 ...Wish I was the one who has a magnet for you toi not to pull away...

...I don't know if he had already read my blog since i post it on my fb account and we're now friends!hope he doesn't...'til now, don't know what to feel...I am CLUELESS!!don't now what to do...

...If he is confused, then I guess I am more than confused, for I know what I am doing and I know what are the things that I shouldn't do but still I did it!!...haiz...ang gulo q..super!...couldn't focus on what I am doing right now!Still so many work to do but my mind is not functioning...all I wanna do is check his blog for the updates, check his fb account for his wall post and worst check his "ex" girlfriend blog for her wall post to!! I am really, really insane!...fell like I need a galloons of coffee to drink for me to get drown and be awake with all these fancy things!!

...It is too difficult when I only think is how lucky she is to have him when all I ever wished, wanted, longed and hoped for was to be with him, to know him, to see the real him when everyone else says it isn't true, to know the real him according to his friends...

...I wish I could know the real you,  the person that your friend was telling me...

...I wish there is a third time...can't you make a move???

...I wish I am the one that makes you confused for I am more than willing to answer all of it...

...all of this were all i fancy...Is it difficult for you to communicate and let me know the real you, Is it that easy for you to hurt me?Is it easy for you to make me smile while your hurting me at the same time??When can I have the chance to know the real you??or Is there really is a real you?wasn't I am just making my self believe to cover up the pain and still hold on when there is nothing to hold on to???

...I think and I know I am already INSANE!!! ala na...na wala na ang lahat ng katinuan sa utak q!!

... wish you are too :-(