...today is my first day at my new work but it's not what I want to write right now...
...here we go!!!
...it t'was last last Monday when he made me realize about "love" and all its painful reality and I thought "this is it!!!wala na talaga...there's no single chance of making it all possible...He just stop", I make myself believe and understand that not all the things that I wanted was meant to be made possible...that ALL the things that are so dear...so special...so important to me are just meant to vanish into thin air..."ala eh...ganun talaga...learn to accept the sad reality"...
..."If he is not a 100% na gage!!! Don't know what to think...ang gulo nya"...He would turn me down then all of a sudden pick me up as if nothing happens...What should I think...Don't know what to feel about he's doings...whats he's up to??? I just don't know if he is only playing games..."ala talaga aqng maisip na concrete idea on what he is thinking or doing...
...I know it was me and my nasty fault..If I don't allow it to happen, it won't really happen...I know I should be blame...All I know is that I coudn't turn my back on him...I couldn't ignore him...I couldn't stand!!!If only I could...maybe I wasn't that strong to do all this...I know I was hurt so badly...very badly but I coudn't help it...
...If only I could
...I am not the type of person who believes on the realities of love...the love conquer all thing... but I guess I should believe now...Not that I could conquer everything (helloo!!! I'm wounded) but NOW I KNOW that a person who love and is loved back really is strong...there is no powerful weapon than to be loved by a person who also loves you back(ewwwwww!!!!hahahaha but it's true)...
...anyway it's too late na so I need to get home...
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